My father named me Kaitlyn on April 29. Today i am at the age of 20 years old and my tumblr will me my journal! Follow me if you like, i love getting advice and i will be open ears for anyone who needs my advice! Stay amazing, and always smile♥


at this point i dont know what to do anymore..</3

as i lay here in bed with you next to me i cant help but think this isnt going to be like this forever..

i constantly think that your talking to someone who can give you the world better than i can.. who will let you do everything you want to do in your life..

i just am some girl who tells you not do to things and tries to change you..

i wish i was different on how i felt about things but im not..

ill never change how i feel about certain things..

i honestly wish you were just happy…

It is often in the darkest
skies that we see the
brightest stars.

Richard Evans (via feellng)


you don’t realize how attached you are to someone until you go without talking to them for a bit

nothing anyone can do,

its official.

im completely dead inside.

my heart doesnt even beat.

but thats okay,

im always alone

this is what i deserve.

no one will ever understand

why im so depressed



never thought i would be this competely unhappy.. i seriously just put a smile on to get over and through the day.. but in reality when i go to sleep i cry myself to sleep.. i wish every single day that i wasnt here.. i just want to run away and seriously never come back.. i hate that its my birthday.. i always told myself i wasnt going to make it to 20 but i did.. and im so hating every single moment..

im alone.. i yell at the most important person in my life.. i should just let it go.. anything she does isnt as bad as i think it is.. i just put all the bad thoughts in my head.

i love her so much.. shes everything to me..i just.. i hate disappointing her.. she deserves nothing but the best and.. i feel like i cant give her that..

which makes me more unhappy.. i just.. im fucking depressed and no one sees it beside when i look in the mirror.. i hate.. i hate crying..