My father named me Kaitlyn on April 29. Today i am at the age of 20 years old and my tumblr will me my journal! Follow me if you like, i love getting advice and i will be open ears for anyone who needs my advice! Stay amazing, and always smile♥
at this point i dont know what to do anymore..</3
as i lay here in bed with you next to me i cant help but think this isnt going to be like this forever..
i constantly think that your talking to someone who can give you the world better than i can.. who will let you do everything you want to do in your life..
i just am some girl who tells you not do to things and tries to change you..
i wish i was different on how i felt about things but im not..
ill never change how i feel about certain things..
i honestly wish you were just happy…
you don’t realize how attached you are to someone until you go without talking to them for a bit
nothing anyone can do,
im completely dead inside.
my heart doesnt even beat.
but thats okay,
im always alone
this is what i deserve.
no one will ever understand
why im so depressed
never thought i would be this competely unhappy.. i seriously just put a smile on to get over and through the day.. but in reality when i go to sleep i cry myself to sleep.. i wish every single day that i wasnt here.. i just want to run away and seriously never come back.. i hate that its my birthday.. i always told myself i wasnt going to make it to 20 but i did.. and im so hating every single moment..
im alone.. i yell at the most important person in my life.. i should just let it go.. anything she does isnt as bad as i think it is.. i just put all the bad thoughts in my head.
i love her so much.. shes everything to me..i just.. i hate disappointing her.. she deserves nothing but the best and.. i feel like i cant give her that..
which makes me more unhappy.. i just.. im fucking depressed and no one sees it beside when i look in the mirror.. i hate.. i hate crying..